When I began Soul Space Studio, many years ago, I was lead to rethink financial exchange. I'm not gonna lie, this has caused me a great deal of turmoil, loss of business, disrespect, mmm yeah many things. Even still, I have held firm and strong to what I've been spiritually, intuitively directed to do. 

Systems are being called to change. This is a topic much larger than this post, my livelihood, or me. However, for me, the system of financial exchange, within the offerings of my little business,  is a small part of this bigger conversation. It was spiritually brought to me that this 'work' is for everyone, is on going, and each individual who comes to me in alignment to do their 'work' should be able to do so without a financial tug-of-war. And, (yes, there was more ;) in association to the change in systems, I was being called to provide an opportunity for individuals to take responsibility on how they are in relationship with their money. Like the opening sentence of this paragraph, there is so, so, SO much more to this, which isn't necessary at this time or even needed in order to express my definition of Sacred Commerce.

Before I go on, I want to share an example of being in relationship with money as far as an exchange of commerce. A gentleman called the studio to schedule a time for his daughter's birthday. He mentioned how much his daughter wanted her party at Soul Space Studio. As we discussed the details of the party, how many guests, the theme, etc. the conversation remained light and fun. There was an excitement building for his little girl. Then he asked, "How much?" I responded, "How much do you want to spend on your daughter's birthday party?" The lightness of conversation shifted as did his tone when he responded, "I don't know! You tell me!"  

Regardless of how much or how little he spent, the intention, for both him and me, was already established. His little girl and her friends would have a creative, fun time in Studio for her birthday. I preceded to tell him, "You get to choose how much you want to spend on this event and we'll create it." I wasn't asking him to put a price tag on his daughter's joy, but to be in relationship with his hard earned income and to have a say in how he wanted to spend it. While his tone was of authoritative aggravation, I knew it held an essence of fear around something uncomfortable for him. He was taken off guard by an unexpected twist. He didn't know what to say or what to do next. This isn't how the system works, for Pete's sake.

We're just not there yet, are we? As a collective, we're not ready to shift our relationship with money. Money, which is currency, is a form of energy. So buying and selling is an energetic exchange. Heck, most of us don't even realize we are meant to have a relationship with money. Again, another topic much bigger than this post.

To continue on....

The original definition of Sacred Commerce I worked with was, "Pay what you can based on trust and integrity." Over the years this definition lead individuals to take advantage and make judgment statements such as, "She (meaning me) doesn't need the money" or "She likes to do this stuff for free."  This further lead to a level of disrespect and disregard of, not just the 'work', but also of Spirit from which this was directed. Then there is the obvious, I too have been disrespected and taken advantage of, which for some, opened a door to more judgement statements. The greater violation truly is the decregaation of the 'work', sovereignty, personal transformation, and spirit.

When I began to feel burning resentment, I knew I had to make some changes, and change continues to come. The first wave of change is the definition of Sacred Commerce. It now is :: "A fair and equitable financial exchange which upholds and honors the work, each client, and me. Sacred Commerce is in connection to, and in harmony with, the transformation each individual is guided to receive through their efforts and our co-creative process."

I know the potency of this kind of transformation, and while it is for everyone, not everyone is ready. I also know one woman's $20 is another's $200, is another's $2000....and, without 'skin in the game,' transformation doesn't fully unfurl. Furthermore, transformative growth comes with a push from next level trust, an ask of investment, not just in currency, but of time, and a commitment that often makes one squirm. Please know, this call isn't only on the side of clients, I too must trust, invest, and commit the same.

Now, this leads to a word of caution. There is no way to dance around it anymore, on either side, mine or client. As a facilitator, way shower, guide I must call it out when I see it, otherwise I am inhibiting the unfurling wings of transformation. And, when a client chooses to ignore their role in Sacred Commerce, they bring upon themselves a lower karmic vibration which tends to ripple out to their own business, family, and relationships.

Sacred Commerce is of great importance from every angle. May you do a check in of your own relationship with money. May you reflect on the ways you exchange with those who serve and support you, as well as those whom you serve and support. If you have any questions or I can be a support to you, please reach out.

Reciprocity must  be in flow.
The energy channels must be open.
The systems are coming down. 

In case you're wondering, no, the sweet little girl didn't have her party at Soul Space Studio. It is my lingering hope, her birthday that year, was filled with as much magic as it would have been, had she celebrated in Studio. And, that her dad has entered into a curiosity of Sacred Commerce.

We’ve all had those moments when a song opens a portal to memory. Music has the ability to not only bypass logic and feeling but it can completely detour thought and emotion. You know; it’s the song which penetrates deeper into layers of the heart and then weaves memory with emotion and time, or better yet, the absence of time. I had such an experience this week. 

I’ve been at the Cabin working the energy, bringing in furniture; essentially doing a full on reconnection with the sanctuary space, both home and land. I’d just finished an energetic clearing of the loft area and, feeling quite accomplished and light, began sliding down the stairs (yes, literally like a kid, bump-bump-bumpity-bump). The upliftness and reestablished trust of the cabin, as well as having the loft prepped for an art gathering, simply felt amazing. To keep me motivated, I had music playing throughout the day. On my bumpity-bump downstairs Everything I Own by Bread came on, stopping me at a bump.

My response was completely unexpected and, quite honestly, took me off guard. Jeff immediately came to mind and heart. In that moment, his essence was so palpable on the stairs, it took my breath away and tears began to flow. Now, had it been Wildflowers by Tom Petty or maybe I Will Remember You by Sarah McLachlan or When I Get to Where I’m Going, Dolly Parton and Brad Paisley, Where the Green Grass Grows, Tim McGraw….yeah so many other songs might have done this to me, but Everything I Own, has never moved me this way. I wasn’t even in that head-heart space to be moved, or in this case, halted.

From the ‘work’ I do, and the unusualness of the song, I knew this was more than just sparking memory. This was an invitation to pause, to feel, to listen more deeply, not just to the song (which is important), but to what was ready to rise and weave from within me. Instead of brushing it off or simply remaining in the memory and then moving on bumpity-bump down the stairs, I sat with it, all of it, and got curious :: Why this song? Why Jeff’s presence? Why here and now?

There, on the stairs, the weaving began; opening personal insights, enhanced remembrance, spiritual enrichment…the portal path of the wordless knowing. I am grateful to these moments, grateful I know to pause to these moments. And yes, there will be an Art Medicine™journey to further integrate the weaving.

So the next time a song stirs a memory…or more…may you choose to pause, get curious about what may be weaving for you, and bravely enter the portal. Reach out if I can be a support to you, to listen, guide you through an Art Medicine™ piece, or to simply bump-bump-bumpity-bump along.

Have you ever felt pushed to the absolute limit, where life's relentless challenges leave  you depleted, frustrated, and yearning for a different path? 

My own journey, much like yours perhaps, has been a profound testament to the human spirit's capacity for resilience, recovery, and radiant transformation. 

It was a sacred remembering of who I truly am, and it's a path I am now devoted to guiding other women through.

My path on this journey wasn't a straight one; it was forged in the fires of profound loss and relentless challenge.

In May of 1997, a traumatic accident left me with life-altering injuries. I was expected to be DOA, but through an unwavering fight to live, the power of collective prayer, and numerous surgeries, I left the hospital three months later with the loss of both legs – one above the knee, the other below.

For the next 15 years, I endured many more surgeries in an attempt to abate ongoing infections and continued reconstruction to save my knee. Ultimately, in 2012, after a 19 hour surgery, I became a bilateral above-the-knee amputee.

This wasn’t the end of great loss. December 2005, once again my path was being forged. My husband suddenly became ill and was admitted into the hospital. Now, on the other side of the hospital bed, I watched his painful decline. After 3 months, he lost his battle. My husband crossed over in February 2006.

Six weeks later, my father crossed unexpectedly. Then, the Great Recession of 2007 drove me into financial decimation. I plummeted into an abyss of grief.

These events, along with the accumulation of other life experiences, delivered me into clinical depression, anxiety, panic attacks, PTSD, and chronic pain. I was pushed to my absolute limit.

Years of traditional therapy offered support and prescription medication helped, but I wanted more, more healing, less Rx. From deep within my soul called for something more—a different kind of space, a space for soul recovery, for healing that transcended conventional approaches.

This yearning ignited a profound journey of re.membering my true self, an awakening to an ancient knowing within. For nearly three decades, I've immersed myself in an intentional process of intuitive writing, expressive arting, and soulful movement. This isn't just creative expression, I've found it to be a powerful, yet gentle, dialogue between my inner child and inner wise one.

​I believe this primal form of communication is unique to each individual, an innate language spoken, not by words alone but through scribble, shape, symbol, color, and image. The process gently and profoundly stirs an inner alchemy, opening pathways for deep, authentic self-discovery, recovery, and healing.

Another potent and most important addition to my healing journey has been nature. I've spent years attuning to the natural cycles and rhythms of natural world. From living in a cabin on 13 acres of bogland, following the solar and lunar cycles, and spending as much quality time outside as possible, I’ve received nature’s ageless medicine and an alignment to the wisdom of the seasons and moon phases.

This deep communion with the elemental forces of creation along with true self expression, offers a grounded, expansive presence and remembrance that I now guide others to discover for themselves.

It’s here, in nature’s embrace and in the intuitive arting process, that we begin to Reawaken, Rejuvenate, Reignite, Restore, Reweave our Soul, Self, and Sovereignty. It truly is the Art of Awakening to a primal ReMembrance.

My life's experiences, honed practices, various studies, and hard earned certifications have uniquely shaped me into what I refer as a Nature-Based Soul Recovery Guide.

From my own personal experiences, I have a developed a profound gift for seeing the luminous essence within women who feel depleted,  frustrated, and disconnected from their true selves. I am passionately dedicated to guiding them to their own soul recovery, helping them reclaim their ability to self-honor, remember their inherent nature, harness harness their creative potential, and trust their inner authority. 

My journey stands as a testament to the limitless possibilities that reside within us all, a living reminder that even in the face of immense challenge, life simply remains beautiful.